dazed and confused

I really hope I can find a job soon so I can start saving to go back to school. I miss having something to do that uses my brain. I feel like spaghetti in a strainer being spun in circles rapidly.

A- anxious
N-nervous
X-Xanax
I-irritable
E-echos
T-trembling
Y-yawning

Around the clock headache. I'm feeling like a deer in the headlights every time I see lights.

Migraine thoughts

Is there a reason people aren't listening? Is there any purpose I was born for? I'm just drifting away like sand from everything I love. I don't want to hate the people I love but I've been so angry that it's making me hate everything.

My head hurts. I'm so tired and lost in life from always being alone with my thoughts. I obsess over being angry. I can't wait for summer because I need vitamin D in my life.